me: i was so much heavier 8 years ago
friend: and why aren’t you anymore
sister: because she was the only lucky one in this family
thoughts: oh yeah. sure. because you have any idea of me and my body. of course i was ‘just lucky’. you’re totally right. i mean, i didn’t starve at all. there was no time i hated myself for eating one banana the whole day. there wasn’t a time when i ate nothing for 3 days. it never happened that i threw up just because i ate one thing. i never went to the bathroom after eating just to get rid of the food in my stomach. it also never happened that i felt sick for hours when i ate sth just because i couldn’t throw up. i didn’t go for a run every evening when i was 13 even though i didn’t eat the entire day just to loose weight. i didn’t make an exercising plan when i was 9 just to get thin because our brother told me i was fat.
You are completely right.
i was just lucky.
